Etsuko Sohma

Today, I was very worried. I had this cousin that came from China on Friday night. I was very nervous about meeting him. But, when I met him, he wasn't as "shy" as I thought he was. He was very... forward. He started the whole conversation... well, we actually wanted to talk at the same time. He went first. He asked me if my chinese was good. I can't believe that I actually remember that but, I guess he wanted to know if I was comfortable speaking chinese all the way through. He said that he had no interest in speaking english and therefore, didn't want to learn english. He said he doesn't want to be here because.. he had a girlfriend back "home". I found that... shocking. He's the same age as me but yet, he has a girlfriend. I'm not comparing the, "he got a girlfriend and I don't?!" situation. It's just that.. at his age and education, he has one.
I felt bad for him. He was too nice when he talked to me. He shouldn't be here. He shouldn't have came here at all. He can be easily deceived and all. Today was his first day at school. I wonder if he's getting used to it. I mean, he doesn't know english. What can he do in one of the superintendent schools? If you're wondering, he went to John J. Pershing. But, that's not the point. Sighs... I really worry. The whole day, I wasn't feeling all that good. I felt fake. I smiled like I use to but... I felt like it wasn't its usual.
Other than that, I think Christine is mad at me...
No... not think.. I know she is.
It's just this feeling that she is. Maybe it's the wrong body language but, I'm pretty sure she is. It's all because I didn't share lunch?
Sighs...