I have been really busy and should be doing my science projects but I find that, my heart doesn't want to move right now...
I am really sad, sad that I should forget, give up, and feel this...
feeling.
I don't want to be sad. I want to be cheerful, to match my name, to match my true self... but my true self is ugly....
I want to cry but... with so many people around me, cheering me on, smiling at me, how can I cry?
They did not know that the world has ended for me, they do not know that my heart is gone, they do not know
anything...
I want to go, go freely and with no regrets. I want to see more and learn more from my mistakes, but I can't do that without a heart. My heart has been broken into little pieces that you can't even see it and that's why my heart is gone. I don't know what to do anymore...
I am tired,
let me go...
I figured that this light is too bright for me... too bright, too cheerful, too
sad....
What can I do? I have family and friends that smile all the time and here I am, looking all cheerful on the outside but actually really empty inside.
Can I actually
give up?
Without him, it's like a end to me, end to my life, end to my love.
How can I keep on loving my friends and family without him?
I may sound emo but inside, I am just heart broken...Who can heal my broken heat?
