Etsuko Sohma

I need time... Today is the 8th grade graduation ceremony at New Utretch High School. Right now, I feel so hurt... and sad. I don't even get to see the happy face he'll have on on the last day of school. It hurts me deeply but I cannot cry... I don't know why, I just can't cry. I'm not able to. How I hope that I can go back in time. This makes me feel even worse. I can't deny it. I never even liked him.
He may just have been a partner in dreams. He may have just been one of those typical 8th graders that I've met in my first year in middle school. I just think that maybe.. just maybe.. we could've just been friends... at the very least. But, we were not. We were just strangers to each other. That is terrible. We hardly know each other. Oh well, who knows what can happen now?
I don't know what else I can do to erase my pain. I think this will be it for now. Thank you [whoever you are] for reading! =D

Today, I have been in the computer lab for like 3 hours. I was stuck there doing work. Well, it was a lot better than staying in class for the day. Today is a Monday and it feels like the last day of school which is the 26th. Thought that I finished my work and I can write in this blog for once. The last time I've written in here has to be around like 1 month ago. I have many things that I really wanted to say.
Anyways... he left me... He went to Korea for vacation. The last time I probably saw him was around June 13th. I can't believe that I hadn't been paying attention of his whereabouts. I just thought that he was just sick until the Graduation Awards Ceremony came. I was helping out because I'm totally not the senior there... and the 8th graders were all like, "He went to Korea..." That was when my stomach started to clench. I haven't ate anything that day. I was just... there... It was sad being around the school. I know that he's in Korea for vacation but who actually knows? Maybe he's staying there for the rest of his life! I feel really sad these days and I really don't know who to talk to...
There's a lot more to say... but I don't feel like posting this here. I know that no one actually reads what my blog has to say and I don't care. I'll just keep writing this blog. Who knows when I might die and suddenly, everyone figures out that they all didn't know me as well as they thought? Oh well...
There are new pictures though...